everyone off the boat
I NEVER thought I'd be doing this...
In 2012 I started guiding meditations for in-person events. My work was guiding people together, though mystical experience, in a room or in nature.
In 2017, by request, I gathered all the meditations we’d been doing at those events (and that I had available for download in the shop or included in the books),and I made the Streamer’s library. This was a subscription-based space housing all the guided experiences, and it was designed for the folks who wanted to meditate often at home.
That library now needs a paywall overhaul/upgrade.
Starting last summer and ramping way up on CHRISTMAS DAY 2024 I started having major issues with the paywall service we’ve been using. I could not reach their tech support, they weren’t updating their code fast enough for new browser versions, etc.
Which means… that I need to get everyone off that old boat.
I know this process of getting everyone off the old boat (and onto the new one - more on that in next Tuesday’s post) is going to take, at minimum, a few weeks.
I also realize that I will take a revenue hit during an already uncertain time to get everyone free and clear; but it must happen.
So, first, let me ask for your patience. I do not have “a team” and when you email me, I am the one who answers it. Please know I care very deeply about each person’s experience on my site and I always endeavor to take good care of all you beautiful, magical people.
Today I am asking all Streamer’s to cancel their account. You will still have access to the Streamer’s library until your next billing date; and at that point you can choose to join the new Library, or not.
Here are easy instructions to cancel your account - again, you will still be able to log-in for the remainder of any time you’ve already paid for.
Go to the Archived Streamer Log In page
Click “Member Login"
When the Member Log-in window opens click “My Profile” in the lower left hand corner
Enter your email and password and select the kind of account you have
Then your profile window will open and you can click “Cancel My Subscription” in the lower right hand corner.
Canceling your subscription means you won’t be charged anymore and will begin your transition off of the old boat.
Anyone who wants to get on the new boat – the new library is here, with features that will make it easier to access your account and give me space to expand the content further than I could before.
Please note - I am still building out the new library and figuring out how all the admin works. You may want to give me a few weeks before you join. Right now the new library has all the 135 meditations from the Streamer’s Library and everything from 99 VISIONS; but this is just the tip of the iceberg for what I want to do in this new space. For my own personal sanity, I am considering the new library expansion to be phase 2; phase 1 being just getting as many people as possible to cancel out of the old system.
If your subscription renews monthly, just cancel your account and once the rest of your month is up, if you want to join the new library on a monthly basis, you can do that here.
If your subscription renews annually, cancel it - again, you’ll still be able to log-in for the remainder of the time you’ve paid for - AND… if you have a lot of time left, I am figuring out how to give you a discount code for the new library. Once we get through the first waves of cancellations, I will have more information on this and probably will email you each directly.
Thank you from the center of my heart to everyone who has been a Streamer, and thank you to everyone who reached out to let me know about the paywall issues. Even though I am asking you to do it, and I know I’m creating for us a better space, each cancellation notice that comes through will be like a tiny arrow through my heart… but it is clear, it must be done.
Although this feels a bit like an on-going, low-grade, administrative nightmare that I might never escape (lol dramatic), I am so glad to have entertained you in this space. It is very rare for someone to have clients all over the world letting them know how chaotic just logging in had become, or that folks were prompted to download certain meditations instead of just playing them. I am so grateful to you all, for being the greatest.
I hope to see you in the new library space…
Until next time,
Jess
p.s. there is an eclipse happening this week, maybe you can already feel the energy building… if so, listen to Eclipse, or I’ve unlocked last Friday’s post in the paid space because it features a new version of The White Room, which would be a good practice to engage with as the world leaps and bucks in the direction of change…
“At moments like this, where it feels chaotic, it’s important to remember what chaos really means: Its etymology is Greek, khaos for “vast chasm, void.” It is the space after all endings and all new beginnings; it’s the tomb but also the cosmic womb. This stretch of darkness feels vacuum-like and terrifying, but it is as fertile as the richest soil. Many of us are being formed and shaped for the years to come, years that feel awfully important. We are preparing to birth our gifts—even if we’re not conscious of our own transformation. It reminds me of the couplet by Greek poet Dinos Christianopoulus:
what didn’t you do
to bury me
but you forgot
that I was a seed.”
- Elise Loehenen, Pulling the Thread
In that first hardly noticed moment in which you wake,
coming back to this life from the other
more secret, moveable and frighteningly honest world
where everything began,
there is a small opening into the new day
which closes the moment you begin your plans.
What you can plan is too small for you to live.
What you can live wholeheartedly will make plans enough
for the vitality hidden in your sleep.
To be human is to become visible
while carrying what is hidden as a gift to others.
To remember the other world in this world
is to live in your true inheritance.
You are not a troubled guest on this earth,
you are not an accident amidst other accidents
you were invited from another and greater night
than the one from which you have just emerged.
Now, looking through the slanting light of the morning window
toward the mountain presence of everything that can be
what urgency calls you to your one love?
What shape waits in the seed of you
to grow and spread its branches
against a future sky?
Is it waiting in the fertile sea?
In the trees beyond the house?
In the life you can imagine for yourself?
In the open and lovely white page on the writing desk?
- David Whyte
“Beginnings often frighten us because they seem like lonely voyages into the unknown. Yet, in truth, no beginning is empty or isolated. We seem to think that beginning is setting out from a lonely point along some line of direction into the unknown. This is not the case. Shelter and energy come alive when a beginning is embraced… We are never as alone in our beginnings as it might seem at the time. A beginning is ultimately an invitation to open toward the gifts and growth that are stored up for us. To refuse to begin can be an act of great self-neglect.
[…]
Our very life here depends directly on continuous acts of beginning.”
- John O’Donohue
“Our world—digitally mediated, utterly consumed by capitalism—makes communication about morality very easy but makes actual moral living very hard.”
- Jia Tolentino, Trick Mirror
"Often, change doesn't come trumpeting itself in. It comes in quiet, barely noticed ways. No bolts of lightning and grand entrances here. Just a subtle relaxation into the body. A tiny shift towards where you are. An old belief, an outdated story, seen for what it is. A new path emerging in the darkness. A vague, unspeakable hope dawning in the first light of the day you imagined would never come. Everything the same, everything different, everything always resting in motion, and the mysteries of change forever unresolved."
- Jeff Foster
“I have loved and been loved; I have been given much and I have given something in return; I have read and traveled and thought and written. I have had an intercourse with the world, the special intercourse of writers and readers. Above all, I have been a sentient being, a thinking animal, on this beautiful planet, and that in itself has been an enormous privilege and adventure."
- Oliver Sacks
“I don’t mean to contradict the contract between you and I. Where you follow, and watch, and comment, and I talk, and perform, within the constructs of the roles we have agreed upon. We have a soul contract, you know. We have a lot of time. I do something and you do something. But sometimes the mind just softens and keeps going, going, going, until it’s gone, far past where it should go…
I must be sure of what I am for you. Because I cannot be everything. I think it is better if we can decide to be a few things, and try to embody them fully.
When you commit to what you want to be, the universe aligns around it passively.
Being is an active state.”
- sotce
“My love, it will take a great deal of lying down and resting, doing nothing at all, for you to save the world.”
-Martha Beck
Love the quick profit, the annual raise,
vacation with pay. Want more
of everything ready-made. Be afraid
to know your neighbors and to die.
And you will have a window in your head.
Not even your future will be a mystery
any more. Your mind will be punched in a card
and shut away in a little drawer.
When they want you to buy something
they will call you. When they want you
to die for profit they will let you know.
So, friends, every day do something
that won’t compute. Love the Lord.
Love the world. Work for nothing.
Take all that you have and be poor.
Love someone who does not deserve it.
Denounce the government and embrace
the flag. Hope to live in that free
republic for which it stands.
Give your approval to all you cannot
understand. Praise ignorance, for what man
has not encountered he has not destroyed.
Ask the questions that have no answers.
Invest in the millenium. Plant sequoias.
Say that your main crop is the forest
that you did not plant,
that you will not live to harvest.
Say that the leaves are harvested
when they have rotted into the mold.
Call that profit. Prophesy such returns.
Put your faith in the two inches of humus
that will build under the trees
every thousand years.
Listen to carrion – put your ear
close, and hear the faint chattering
of the songs that are to come.
Expect the end of the world. Laugh.
Laughter is immeasurable. Be joyful
though you have considered all the facts.
So long as women do not go cheap
for power, please women more than men.
Ask yourself: Will this satisfy
a woman satisfied to bear a child?
Will this disturb the sleep
of a woman near to giving birth?
Go with your love to the fields.
Lie down in the shade. Rest your head
in her lap. Swear allegiance
to what is nighest your thoughts.
As soon as the generals and the politicos
can predict the motions of your mind,
lose it. Leave it as a sign
to mark the false trail, the way
you didn’t go. Be like the fox
who makes more tracks than necessary,
some in the wrong direction.
Practice resurrection.
- Wendell Berry
Jessica, ✨YOU✨are magic.
💗hugs💗
You’re killing it by figuring this out so quickly and making moves.
You give so much: love, and light, support, a safe place, share magic with others. It feeds you 🙋♀️fellow Virgo.
I hope your energies feel returned.